My ex husband and I got divorced 6 years ago. it was an abusive relationship and I know I don't want to be back in that place. We have a child that he isn't allowed contact with and everything was sorted through courts etc I don't love him, I don't fancy him, I don't want to contact him but why do I still think about him! I even wrote him a letter writing about our son with a photo that I won't send! Is it that I'm lonely? It's doing my head in!