My relationship has basically fallen apart. Around 7 weeks ago he told me that he wasn't happy any more and he wanted to 'see how things go' over a period of time to come to a decision about us. This wasn't out of the blue, things have been deteriorating between us over the past few months and I wasn't totally happy either. He says we argue a lot and I always 'give him shit.' The biggest issue we have is that he would go on a night out and not come home until the next day. Happens once every 3/4 weeks. Sometimes it would be two days he wouldn't come home for. He says he doesn't know why he does it, and he can't face 'the shit' I'd give him when he did come home so he'd stay out for part of the following day. He only ever comes home if he has work the following day and has twice, on occasion phoned in sick to continue drinking. This only started in January - before this he'd have one night out a week and come home as normal. This was totally fine by me. I'll also add at this point we have a two year old and a 5 week old baby. Youngest was planned.
Anyway, we've decided to talk on Saturday about everything. Things have been up and down since the initial conversation what with having a newborn, c section recovery, sleep deprivation and the fact that he went for a day/night out drinking last Monday and he never came home until Tuesday night leaving me to do everything at home with no help. He still says he's no further forward with knowing what to do. He's no idea whether he wants a relationship and a future with us, he's no idea if he wants to split. I feel like he's in self destruct mode just now. Last year he lost 5 stone and he's gained it all back, he was on a course to be promoted and he's sacked that in etc. I love him, I love the way we were and how it used to be. It almost feels like since I got pregnant again something changed. He done this a good few years ago when he was young before house, kids etc. He handed in his notice one day and told me he didn't want to be with me any longer. We then got back together 4 months later after he admitted he'd got it all wrong and didn't want to live like this and we have been together since. Am I kidding myself that he's going to tell me he wants to stay together on Saturday? I can't bear the thought of having to take mine's and the kids stuff and find a new place to call home. This is so easy fixed if he was to stop this exessive drinking. He always says he will but he doesn't. I just really need support as I've no one irl to speak to. We'd speek about a having third child and getting married, speek about the future and where we'd take the kids on holiday and our hopes for them and now all of that is gone. I feel like there's no easy option. If we stay together we have serious shit to sort out that'll take a good while. If we split I've to leave (house in his name) start afresh and listen to my two year old ask for her daddy every day knowing he's not there. I've no doubt he'll continue to see the girls weekly and have a good relationship. They are his world. I'm so lost :(