i told him i wanted a divorce.
He is so angry right now. Accusing me of ruining everything, of destroying him. I feel so guilty for hurting him this way but i just couldn't live like this any longer.
Our marriage has been empty for a long time. 3 kids and bucket loads of resentment. He always has to be right and in control. I was always in the wrong. i used to be able to brush that off but i cant any more.
Once i allowed myself to admit it, i felt so suffocated and controlled in our relationship and realized i was acting out in foolish ways to defy his authority but was really only making the conflict deeper.
We were setting an appalling example of marriage for our daughters.
Today I feel like i can breathe again. I just wish i could make it better for him. I dont want to deliberately hurt him but i cant let live like that any more.
He says i am not even trying to fix it but i feel like we have been trying for years and i have no faith that we can fix it. All we were doing was prolonging the agony.