Just wanting to get this off my chest and don't want to talk to friends or family.
Been with my partner 10 years and we have a DD 4.5years and DS 2.5years. Their dad has always been the moody, grumpy type. But it's getting worse and worse. I love it when he is not home, the atmosphere is happy and positive. Me and the kids have so much fun together (even with the tantrums...). When he gets home from work or is off work, the atmosphere changes. He brings us all down. He's miserable and negative about everything. Any time we take thekids out together as a family, it never goes well. Kids kick off and he usually wants to get back home quickly.
This week, it came to a head as he said that everyday is the same. Goes to work in job he hates, comes home to kids crying/tantruming, then he plays on his xbox when they go to bed (that's his choice!). I told him to do whatever it takes to make himself happy - I honestly would've been over the moon if he'd said he wanted to leave us. He has decided its his job and is looking for a new one. However, he has always been depressed. When I met him it was due to a previous relationship, then it was because of money worries then it was his last job. There is always something.
He makes me feel like I'm not good enough. I can't make him happy. I'm a really sociable, free-spirit type person. He is the opposite. I do a lot of stuff on my own. He never comes with me to parties etc. But I prefer that - his mood generally spoils everything we do together.
He sucks the life out of me. I've had enough. He adores the kids and it would break him if I told him to leave us. I'm just sick of feeling like I'm not good enough.