Have NC for this & not sure if it should be on the sex board.
Split from XH beginning of 2015. We rarely had sex, twice a year on average. This was because our relationship was crap and neither of us instigated it unless on the rare occasion we were out & got pissed. I wasn't that fussed about it, I think when you don't get something very often (and it's not great when you do) it loses its appeal.
So it has been 18 months since I last had sex. No relationships since split as I need to heal myself. However in the last couple of months my libido has come back with a bang & I am horny as hell. The last couple of days I feel like a fanny on legs 
I have no desire to get into a relationship, still not ready to let anyone in and I'm not sure I could have a ONS. I have zero social life, I work from home & my world is very small. I'm on a couple of OLD sites but have not been very impressed with the quality weirdos.
I have been taking care of my own needs (nudge, nudge, wink, wink) but I need more. I do have self esteem issues, I'm much heavier than the last time I was single & have body issues. I honestly can't imagine showing anyone this body or anyone finding me attractive.
So it seems that everything is against me getting 'Some'.
Any advice would be gratefully received.