Posting under different name.
He wants me to drink most days (he will buy me wine/pour me a glass if I say no), but then tells me i'm drinking too much and need to go tee-total. This is only at home though, he hates if i go out with my friends for a drink.
He pressurises me into sex. If I say no he accuses me of sleeping with someone else, says I need to accept his attention and that he finds me attractive. I woke up one night to find him trying to have sex with me without a condom (which we have to use). I told him a few months ago I was really uncomfortable with his behaviour, so he said 'fine I won't come near you then' and left me alone for a couple of months but has gone back to how he was. I literally run upstairs and get changed at night so he won't try it on . He gets annoyed if I get changed and put clothes on instead of just being naked for him lol.
I am on antidepressants and have been for years, but if i tell him i'm unhappy with our relationship he says it's down to me being depressed and I need to see a doctor.
He goes through my things/phone constantly. I told him I don't like it, found him doing it last week while I was asleep.
he will quite often stop talking to me, saying there's a problem but no point telling me and he needs to 'put up and shut up' which is how i feel!!
We tried counselling but I really didn't feel like I was being listened to, he just said he has been overprotective cause he is so worried about me all the time and concerned for my wellbeing (I'm 30)
He can be so charming, buying me flowers etc. Everyone else thinks he's amazing but they don't see what he's like at home. He gives me compliments but they almost feel over the top, like they're not genuine.
HELP ME... I feel like I need to leave this man but he can make me feel so guilty at even thinking about it that I just need to know if this behaviour is normal or if i'm being OTT.