Am i depressed? Bored? A miserable cow?

[DetentionGrrrl]

I apologise in advance for this self indulgent twaddle.

I feel crappy, and have done for a few days. Feel fat and frumpy, bored, snapping at DS who is 6 1/2 mths (which is awful i know)I don't know what's wrong with me. DP is very lovely- saw him lunchtime and he said i looked down, i could barely answer him out of miserableness (that's probably not a word is it?)

I didn't even brush my teeth yesterday, and my hair needs washing today. Can't see the point in much. I feel gross and bored and sad. All my friends work, my parents live miles away, DS is teething and got a cold.....

I need a cwtch (which is a big hug to any non-Welsh ladies out there).

((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
It sounds awfully like post natal depression.

Do you have a good health visitor?.

Please see your doctor asap and talk to him/her about how you really feel. Make this appointment today.

APNI (Association for Post Natal Illness) are very good, would suggest you contact them as well.

www.apni.org is their website.

My health visitor is awful, i don't like seeing her at all if i can help it. Lacks people skills and knowledge i'm afriad.

Hoping this will pass- maybe hormones? Perhaps my period is coming back or something, although i never had PMT before DS.

DS is napping now, so i could have a shower etc, but can't be arsed. Need to clean the kitchen before SIL visits later.

Sorry to hear that you are so down. It is not a weakness to admit to being miserable, it's probably just your hormones.

Try to go for a walk outside, let your friends know that you need some support and see your GP or health visitor.

I know when you are depressed it is an effort to even make yourself a cup of tea, let alone take positive action. Please let your dh and other people help.

here is a ((((((((((((((((((((((((((big hug)))))))))))))))))))))) .... leave the tidying - jump in the shower and see what happens. There is a big difference between a day or two of not being arsed and feeling miserable to depression. I am not trivialising what you feel or suggesting you don't have PND .... but have you felt like this for a while or just the past few days? Will a quick walk round the block perk you up - go and buy yourself something lovely ... see how you feel in the next day or so.

If you don't get on with your HV what about your GP? I loathe my HV but my GP is fab and listens (a rarity) ... sorry you feel like this ...

Okay let's pass on the HV. In my experience of them they're either National Treasures or downright awful!.

I have a nasty feeling this will not pass especially if this is PND you're suffering from. Please see your GP asap.

Just as i decided to go in the shower, DS woke up. I put some toys in his cot and had the fastest shower ever...possibly a world record.

Feel a bit less grubby. If i don't feel better in a few days i'll try my GP, she's really nice.

I just feel a bit...flat and 'dead'. My best friend is going to watch DS for a few hours tomorrow so DP and i can go out. Just need to find something to wear that isn't crap now.

this is really starting to feel like depression

Why can't i cheer the f**k up?

Go to your GP. If it is not depression that is fine and you may be feeling better by then anyway. If it is then the sooner it is treated the better.

Otherwise a bit of exercise and some TLC from your partner might help.

Two threads on this recently so you're not alone:

this one with a link to the Mind website and

this one

I'd try and see your gp if I were you.

HTH

Or if it's only been a few days, could be a virus trying to make itself felt. In a few more days you'll get ill, feel like s**t for about a week, then get over it, sorted. Fingers crossed that's all it is. I'm not saying you shouldn't get a health check though, that's always wise.

Oh, and here, have a hug: hug (sorry I can only do an English one).