I feel terrible but I'm so unhappy, you know the feeling of excitement and new ness you get when being with someone new? I want that again. Been with dh 5 year now, he's porn obsessed. Boring in bed, makes excuses etc, I'm sure he's cheated in the past, he likes to look at other women. I want fun, I want excitement I want to feel wanted again! Is that so wrong? I've never felt this unhappy. I drink to feel happy then I just feel miserable again. He's not a very sexual person as I say he prefers to wank I also think he finds men sexually attractive too. I'm so frustrated and unhappy and I feel shit about myself and the situation. But we have children and a house and jobs and lives family etc am I selfish?