I know everyone has to set their own boundaries of what they find acceptable or not but I am seeking opinions/advice.
Please go a bit gentle with me because I know I have a tendency to sound very harsh.
Here is my query.
My husband, of 25 years, is a very angry man. I think he has always been depressed and the only thing that seems to lift him is drink.
20 years ago he told me he didn't want sex with me, or anyone but that he would try. We went to counselling etc but eventually-ten or fifteen years later said he just wasn't interested.
I was desperate to provide my DCs with a stable home-something I never had so after some back and forth I stayed.
I then became seriously ill and permanently disabled. I can no longer work. He is a good earner and pays towards my DMs nursing home and uni fees. He is not very good at managing money but denies this.
He denies most things. Doesn't communicate. We live separate lives which I don't mind because at least we don't argue.
Tonight he was very angry. He was microwaving his own jacket potato and he went mental because it was cold. The dog is incessantly barking and he denies he wanted one when I said it needs to be trained. This is also what the vet said yesterday.
He starts shouting that I never listen to him. I said I can't because it makes me too agitated. I take beta blockers when I'm with him and am on anti depressants.
But I'm too scared to be on my own. We have been together since age 20 and I cannot work although do have quite a few friends.
Just want to know what you mumsnet terms think. He has always been angry and taken it out on himself and inanimate objects. But it's a black cloud. He is like a black cloud but does have good points.