dont know where to turn now :(

[whatamerryxmas]

Hey ladies im back i couldnt find my old thread so ill have to start a new one
I dont know where to turn and dont want people to get cross at me for not taking advice
Im so embarrassed to say how stupid ive been but if anyones willing to chat id really appreciate it......

[tipsytrifle]

What you're hoping for is a different man than the one you have. Why not recycle this hopeful energy to finding one that actually matches your hopes, desires and expectations? This one will never do that, only pull you down and under.

If you would truly love to get out then you're denying your true self by not doing so. The cosmos might say that indeed he's going to keep kicking you, harder and harder, til you "get it" and get out. Best to do it before you drown, eh?

[ijustwannadance]

You KNOW it will never happen. Stop trying to make this utter gobshite happy.
Leave and make yourself happy. You seem to enjoy wallowing in it.

[whatamerryxmas]

I dont enjoy wallowing in it at all :(

[BMW6]

Look OP - he is a vicious abusive cunt who has ground down your self esteem to your current whimpering shell of a person.

He will never ever change for the better. He likes to keep you where you are - underfoot.

Get out of this non-relationship. Tell him to FOTTFSOF and go on holiday alone. Tell him the £50 he has soooo graciously deigned to contribute towards the cost of the holiday that YOU are paying for, like a puppy licking the hand of the bastard that just kicked it, will go towards the costs of the innumerable meals you've cooked him.

If you never have another relationship again it would be infinitley better than this.

Reclaim your dignity and your self respect.

[tipsytrifle]

People may loathe me for saying this what but this is exactly what you are doing. Wallowing in the misery of a destructive relationship that will use you til you're dry and bankrupt in every way. Wake up. Save yourself.

[groovergirl]

Come off it, What. You do not have to be his doormat and cash cow.

Go and see your dad at the weekend, then take your friend on the trip or go by yourself and maybe meet some fun people.

Clear your head. Then you'll know what to do next.

[whatamerryxmas]

Thank you all i know youre right but just didnt want to believe it i suppose.....
Im in alot of pain tonight have got to go for tests at the hospital in the morning as have been sent there by the out of hrs gp as been doubled over all night
He sent me a msg earlier saying he would come n look after me, wanted to be there for me and would never leave me alone in so much pain.....ive just tried to call him n hes in the gym n says it will be too late by the time hes finished so to get off his fucking back
Think that says it all really :(

[Birthgeek]

Indeed, sorry OP. Words are cheap but actions don't lie. Hope you feel better soon.