I've recently realised that I haven't had a great deal of self esteem as an adult. I have been with my husband since early 20s and everything big, eg, moving in together, buying a house, getting married, having children (esp this one!) has always involved a lot of misery/procrastination. But many of these things happened a long time ago, like 15+ years.
When I recently felt depressed I realised that deep down i sometimes feel like I've never been good enough for him. But that seems silly given we are married with a mortgage and 2 gorgeous children. There are lots of happy memories too, especially travelling together, holidays, great company. It's just the grown up stuff that's been a problem.
Would you relegate these things to the past, to him being young or maybe just not dealing well with change?
(as background i have posted before about recent relationshipship problems which sparked this thinking. I need to name change in case DH is reading so can't continue that thread but these are different questions, don't think im repeating anything. Things are starting to get back in track. I'm just trying to understand how we got to where we are.)