Right long story short I've been with someone for approximately 18 months but last October we had a big fight about our future (he's going through a divorce but still living at home on good terms with his ex/wife which approx 75 miles away from me) as I feel like he was pushing me away, I've been treated badly in the past and I am ashamed to say I presumed he was doing he same to me.
We had a heart to heart agreed to try and date/ see each other again after I apologised for some of the things I said and he done the same. I asked him about 2 months ago what is going on between us as he was moving out in September (the reason for the fight) and he said he doesn't know if he wants a relationship with me, I asked him why and he said we will talk soon. 2 months on and still no sign of a talk happening!
He acts like my boyfriend and it's not about sex as that's diminished lately compared to our usual sex life (due to our jobs we work till very late) but the intimacy such as kissing and cuddling is still very much there. I'm confused by his actions and words as they are very different.
There is also a 15year age gap I'm 25 and he's nearly 40 which doesn't bother me as I'm a believer in looks fade personality doesn't. What I want to know is am I wasting my time holding out for him, should I move on and take this as a lesson. I sound selfish I know but I'm not that old. My friends love him but say walk away as I've got years ahead of me but he's my best friend and its not like I can cut him out of my life as we work together too 