been with dh 8 years and married 5 but I am so bored. i do love him. he is really good looking and I do find him attractive. no physical issues, I am on sertraline but trying to wean off them atm. the first few years were absolutely hot as hell... we were head over heels and the sex was absolutely great for the first few years.
i remember our first kiss and first shag even the first time he so much as touched me (in a non sexual way) and it was like being hit by a truck (in a good way) ...I guess I am struggling with the fact I will never feel that lovely "newness" again....although the sex is still good its never the same (cue posters saying they've been with their h's 20 years and its still the same as it was at the start, well sorry but I just don't believe you and neither does science as I have been reading up on it all and the internet is full of articles saying how its natural for relationships to get dull over time, its biological)...I also miss feeling like an utter sex goddess like he made me feel in the beginning.
so have been reading up on it all and just keep seeing articles saying how to spice things up etc. well I don't want to, I want it to be just naturally hot not flagging a dead horse. I also think If I am feeling like this then more than likely so is dh and that makes me sad
i sometimes don't think I can "do" long relationships, my last one before dh ended after seven years, I was just so bored. i was married then as well. but the sex was dull and I didn't really even fancy exH anyway after the first couple of years together. so i met this other guy and it was fireworks, i didnt shag him just kissed a few times but the thrill felt like 1000 times better than i had ever felt with exH. so i finished with him. and I didn't stay with the other man, I wasn't interested in getting with him. he just showed me what was out there and that it was better (as bad as that sounds)
except this time there is 3 kids to consider, a mortgage and the fact I am ten years older and who is going to want me anyway? and despite saying all this I do really love him, we have a solid relationship, and he is an amazing dad...... but I am just bored.,..i feel such a bitch
I know this is a really rambling post but I just am trying to write everything down that I am feeling