Just sat there while my husband told me I 'think I'm too good for everybody' and to 'stop fucking laughing as it pisses me off' and I realise how numb I have become. I feel sad that he spoils what could have been a lovely family for him. Days out are better when his oppressive presence is absent. When he gives me the silent treatment it doesn't even bother me anymore. Sometimes I fantasise about leaving but he's ruined my credit rating and I've got debt from my year as a SAHM. I don't want my son to think this is what relationships are like but I couldn't bear to share custody with him.