I'm trying to do all the right things to get over him..... Going to the gym ... Going to college I have an interview on Monday for a part time job in a salon ..... I want him back I always will .... He gave me all the freedom I needed never questioned me ..... And I loved he was like that ....we had all the same interests and he was fearless .....confident and I found that so attractive .... He was always busy with his life too ..... Now I want to settle down to get married and I thought it would be with him ...the thought of been with some else terrifies me what if I feel trapped.... Or they are too much .... Insecure of needy .... He's the only one that has ever been that way with me the rest have always tried to be controlling .... He said we could be friends and I agreed but I want more ..... He said the waY I have reacted over certain things and somethings I have said made him realise he wants to be on his own and he's better of that way .and he's angry over some of the texts ....he is 40 ... Iv tried texting him as a friend and he hasn't responded .... Iv become all the things he doesn't want my anxiety keeps taking over the more I feel him slipping away the more I'm trying to hold on ..... Does this make sense X.... I decided to join tinder as a destraction and I am speaking to a guy via text and he's pretty quick with text which I'm not liking as I'm not used to it xx ....