Just that really. I may drip feed this one as I am on my way out at the moment. But has anyone ever lost the ability to know how live their life anymore? Or never really knew in the first place.
It has come about as I've just coasted through alot of life really, not really going for it. I mean in terms of social life. Professionally I was focused and never gave up.
Alot of my childhood was a write off, just living adult problems and being made to sort them out and not being allowed to have a normal life as a child and teen and I guess that carried over into adulthood. I just dont bother with life alot of the time and just waste time without realising it.
I have built up my life to look how I wanted it to not so long ago, but I lost it all again and now have to build it all up and am struggling.
I am probably rambling here but whatever. I dont know where to go from here.
Also I am a namechanger. Had the unfortunate experience of someone finding out who i was in real life, they used my laptop, without permission. If you've figured out or figure out who I used to be, please dont say my old name on here.