This isn't what I expected to need help with on becoming a mum...
My only child is now one year old, and while stressful, it's gone pretty well so far. I've met lots of other mums at the same stage through groups etc, but one in particular has stood out from the rest. She seems the only one able to talk about anything other than feeding and nappies, and over the year since we met, we've found ourselves edging away from the other mums a bit, meeting just the two of us etc.
I'm usually slow to get friendly with new people, but I've felt close with her from early on. I've occasionally wondered what's so special about her, but just shook myself and said, look you've a friend and support, don't analyse it.
A few times we've managed to get the husbands or in-laws to watch the little ones and go out together in the evening, but the last time things took an unexpected turn. We both had a bit to drink while out for dinner, then went back to hers, as it wasn't late. I can't really explain how it happened but there was a lot of laughing, hugging and fooling around going on. It's hard to believe I'm writing this, but I'll burst if I don't share with someone. Next thing I knew we were kissing. It just felt right. Things went on from there too.
That was 10 days ago, and I'm not making sense of it. I'm in complete turmoil. I feel guilty towards my husband and child, whom I both love, but above all I'm wanting to spend more time with her. I don't regret what happened at all.
Is this a thing that happens? Both of us would say we're happy with our husbands, and want to stay married, but... So many things!
Anyone come across this? Sometimes I think it's all a mad dream.
Gina