How do others deal with the guilt their exdp creates in them?
16 year relationship. He was the love of my life. But in the last few years its really deteriorated.
He finally left 3 weeks ago. In all honesty i thought i would be like the previous times, that I'd be desperate for him to come home. Cry, be heartbroken. I haven't been at all. He was so lazy that its almost the same without him being here.
But hes desperate to give it another go. I've only seen him cry once, when his mum died. He cried for an hour & a half last night, begging me & promising everything would be different.
I dont believe him. I dont think he has any comprehension of how his lazy, passive & indifferent behaviour has affected & ultimately changed me.
I feel so guilty that hes not in his home. Hes really on his own. No family & few friends. Middle aged, no home, no partner & even the dc are indifferent to him.
I don't know why im posting really. A vain attempt to lift my very heavy heart. I became so exhausted & drained talking to him last night that i ran out of words...
I have no one in RL to talk to.