Ive always thought working hard was something to be admired.not to buy material things as much as to keep out of debt.
The last few yrs with Mum and Dad have been all about their cancer treatments and hospital trips.
Despite this the 2 dcs have found employment and all credit to dd who has been working 45 hr weeks so now we have an income with cash to spare when previously we survived on my part time job as we had no family help with dcs and dhs wage.I also have been doing 40 plus hrs shift work as they are old enough to cook for themselves.
The last few months weve bought a new dining table things for the home,my car.I dont compare myself to others and feel a real sense of achievement that after many yrs of making do we can have a few things.
Tuesday dd was off at the same time as me (rare as we all work different days) and she asked me if we could visit her g parents.
They made drinks then df started asking about family meals which he knows are once a week as we get home at 1130 some eves,Then he started about why we dont go on holidays abroad...its never bothered me and is his regret perhaps.I know he is very ill and realises how short life is himself however i think it is sad he cant be glad about our achievements.
we dont have a lavish lifestyle like my brother with 2 homes and luxury goods and we arent on benefits like my dsis.
I love working and when im off i count the days to going back.
I have a new job so does it give him the right to go on and on everytime i see him about how my life is an existance if i can see the positives ?It is dragging me down.