Husband watching soft core porn

[Diamondtiara]

I've tried to post about the same topic a few times now but I come across so pathetic I have deleted it each time.

So here goes,

My husband has never been one for conventional porn from early in the relationship he swore he never watched it.

Over the 16 years we have been together, in the early days I have found DVDs / vhs's he has recoded from live tv, euro trash, babe station and the odd erotic film quite tame things. I have said I'm happy to watch them together as its something I've never done but he is quite straight laced and embarrassed so I have dropped it.

He doesn't have a high sex drive and would happily do the deed every 3-4 weeks.

I found a few homemade DVDs a few months back that were dated a few days before we got married, I was on my hen night at the time. He said he made them incase the sex "got shit" but he said never had to use them.

I took the bull by the horns after loosing quite a bit of weight and bought some nice underwear basques And some sexy nightdresses. He said I don't know why you bother as they do nothing for me.

Our sex lives has been dwindling again and I think I've found out why. We bought a chipped anndroid box with pretty much any film and box set on. It's not been working properly so I've had a look at it and taken a load of apps off I had to manually delete our watch list history and it seems as soon as I go out he's on there watching films that have softcore porn in them and lots of women's fitness DVDs.
We have apps for porn but none of them have been watched.

He came home yesterday as I was deleting it all and he turned white and he got really embarrassed. He said it's not what it looks like he was just watching them for the romance scenes.

I didn't sleep well last night as I'm gutted. We have zero romance in our lives, he has never made a effort. He hasn't kissed me properly for years and years as its not for him.

He has messaged a few times this morning as he knows I'm upset and says it will stop but it's been going on for years. Yes he's embarrassed but it's for being caught.

He's also said this morning I hope you don't think I'm getting off on all this and wanking, it hadn't really occurred to me but thinking about it whenever I return the blinds are always moved. I keep them down but they are always lower so it brings in no light.

So I guess that what he is saying he doesn't do, he actually probably is isn't he? That's why he's not bothered by the sex.

As I said this all sounds so pathetic but I feel really upset.

[silverfoxofwarwick1952]

I meant to include fox-hunting in the above category of vices of course.