Thank you so much MN for all the advice you've given me, under this name and others.
It probably won't come as a surprise to hear that I got betrayed by the guy I was seeing. The writing was on the wall from the beginning as you all pointed out. I chose not to read it.
I've mourned the passing of it (although more the fantasy than the actual reality of him) and I feel fine. I feel much less upset than I expected. The one problem I am having though is a desire for revenge. I feel angry. All of the break up advice is about getting yourself out the house and keeping busy etc to move on from the sadness and sense of loss. But I've done that already and in that respect I'm doing well. I need some advice on how to deal with the rage that sometimes rises. The sense of injustice and fury at how he can be allowed to get away with it time after time. Any tips?
I've learnt a hell of a lot btw - I won't let this happen to me again!