Help, I don't know what I want to do!
I have a husband, who is nice but emotionally disengaged, and two boys of primary age who are lovely, but hard work. My life is all about getting the right people to the right place, and nagging them to do the right thing when they are there. I'm a 'good' mum, but I'm bored to death.
I also have a long term work colleague. We've always got on well, there's always been a frisson of 'what if?' Recently, that frisson has become a lot more obvious. We kissed. He is keen for it to go further, and I would be too if it weren't for the possible repercussions. I know that I shouldn't, but this genuinely feels like it is the only thing in my life that is just for me, the only care-free exciting glimpse of the fun person I used to be. It's not even that my colleague is that attractive, it's more that it's nice to be wanted!
How do I get myself out of this? And do I want to?