just need to get it out

[WeWishUAMerryXmasNANappyNewYr]

basically im sat here in tears talking to this guy i started seeing last christmas. i realised i fancied him the may before and stuff happened between us a few times and then in november he told me he really liked me. over xmas we got together and even though it was only for a month i fell in love big time. he started going out with his new gf in march and they are still together. i wish i could hate her but she's lovely. we are best friends and ds' godfather so very much a part of my life. i would have thought 12 months on i would be over him, but that is not the case. don't really know why i am posting just needed to get it off my chest.

I think we all start feeling a bit weepy and sentimental and sorry for ourselves over Christmas - anything can set us off - hopefully you'll feel better soon. I once sat in the laundry room at my Mum's house on christmas day hiding from the kids and blubbing my heart out - not sure why now...

D'you think it's getting to you so much because of Christmas? I'm on my own too and I'm feeling so lonely. I can't wait till Jan 2nd when everything will go back to normal.

Sorry to hear that you're crying

yeh and also because this whole thing last year happened at xmas and it was the best xmas i've had since the last year i believed in fc!