I have posted a couple of times, short story is years of ea from my h, I finally had enough after another outburst just before Christmas. Told him I felt it was over and we have been riding a roller coaster ever since. He swings between super husband and dad to the good old nasty spiteful h he normally shows me.
Trouble is I'm trying to be amicable for the kids, he is still living here and won't be able to leave for a few months.
He is wearing me down, I know he is emotionally blackmailing me, but it's almost working. Where I was resolute and strong , I've know fallen deeply depressed and sad and feel like giving in for easy life.
The kids know, everyone flipping knows.. He made sure of that.. He couldn't even help putting the knife in when we were telling the kids.
I'm just flapping about the future, about supporting myself and the kids, having no money, no nice things... Worrying about never meeting anyone that likes me, not that it's at the forefront but it is there... And mostly about how will probably be dating before you know it.. He is all secretive and out all the time and watching it is leaving a yucky feeling in my tummy.
Am I making a huge mistake?
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batshipcrazy · 17/01/2016 14:12
I think we might be married to the same man batship. Even down to the going out and being secretive. I see it as a misguided attempt to make me jealous as I think that he thinks that I might think he has gone on a date... I wish..
Stay strong and don't give up. 
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