I think I need help.

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I've posted before about believing my H was on a sex sites, turns out it wasn't him. I feel that I might actually have something wrong with me, as I've said he's lied about his sexual fantasies and also a porn addiction and now he hides everything. He's constantly got a private web browser up. I've just had a miscarriage and I'm struggling with life. I'm scared he's up to something, I'm scared to be alone, I'm scared to be with him. I really need help.

Go to your gp and tell them. They can help.

The only help you need is dealing with your lying husband. He could be gaslight in you from what you've said.

Ask yourself this - have you had these feelings in other relationships or just with him?

Have you been spying on him? Do you think this is feeding feelings of paranoia?

A person who uses a private web-browser is either doing things they know their partner would disapprove of so is intent on hiding it or is tired of being spied on when they are doing nothing sinister. Which do you think is the more likely?

There is no such thing as 'spying' on a husband - only taking reasonable precautions.
You aren't comfortable with him. Don't take on the view that you are paranoid - he's on a private web browser so you have every right to be suspicious.
Do you have friends or family who can give you moral and emotional support at this time?
Even though you are scared, it might be better for your wellbeing if you are not with him.

How do you know it wasn't him? Because he said so?

Of course I've been spying! He's been on escort sites etc so I'm obviously going to be paranoid and check but if he is doing something that is nothing to hide he won't need to use a private browser, he also uses a normal web browser btw! For looking at rugby scores etc. why does he want to fuel my insecurities? It seems clear to me he doesn't care one bit about me.