Have no patience for my son, so ashamed

[namechangetoday]

hes only 2,

i recently had another baby and all my patience is gone,

i love him so much, but just snap at him, i feel trapped in my home

i know im doing it, and feel guilty after, but continue to do so,

everyone sees me as this perfect mother, when im out im ok, but once the morning comes, DH is gone to work, the world closes in and i just hate it,

hes so small and beautiful, i dont want to do this,

i dont want him to remember me snapping at him, shouting even,

no 2 year old should be shouted at,

im NOT going to the doctors, im not depressed jsut frustrated, no friends ect,

i feel like an arse and fully expect you all to have a go at me for doing this,

i love him so much hes so small, im terrified of getting PG again,

i want to be a good mum, but good mums dont shout

Glad you are feeling better! From reading this thread, I feel utterly horrid now, though! DD is 2.11 and a bit of a diva tbh. I find myself snapping at her all the time too and I feel terrible for it. I just can't seem to help it though.

Our situation is slightly different though in that I work 40 hours a week and I don't see DD in all that time although she comes to work with me (work in baby room of nursery - she's in pre-school) then when I get home, I've got dinners to make, washing, ironing etc and its all over the place.

Then DH comes in ranting and raving that X Y Z hasn't been done and he's fed up with it and he can't live like it etc etc.

I'm off work now til 2nd Jan and in that time, obviously aprt from Xmas, I need to get my house into some kind of order whilst entertaining my demanding little princess....

Namechange: big hug to you, am also mother of 2-year-old who I love to bits but often snap at and occasionally shout at. . Basically, toddlers are hard work. Parenting is hard work. everyone shouts at DCs occasionally and they tend not to die of it, it';s not the end of the world. And it doesn't stay the same for ever, keep telling yourself that.
Alos, like other people have said, make sure you get some time to yourself - one afternoon or evening a week when you go out without kids, go to the pictures/pub/bingo/restaurant or whatever. Make sure you go out and leave your DP/H with the kids otherwise you will end up being interrupted every 5 minutes...