I am 37 and think I would like a child (although appreciate I am running out of time).
I've been with my bf a year - we've had a lovely year together and a lovely Christmas. We've talked loosely about having children etc but it's all very vague etc.
I mentioned to him the other day that if things were still as good between us next time this year then I would want to try for a baby. He agreed. He gets that my biological clock is ticking and he is slightly older so says he doesn't want to be too old a dad.
However I feel a bit like it's all discussed in a fairly hypothetical way. Really were we thinking of trying for a baby we would need to perhaps think about living together this year. Living together has also been mooted but again I feel it's fairly hypothetical with no firm plans.
In some ways I feel I am rushing a bit because of biology. I would like us to have some more time together, just enjoying each other etc. This year I'd like us to go on a decent holiday together etc and just spend more time together. I have to say that until recently I was apprehensive about living with someone. I've done it before and it didn't work out well. But he was away recently and I really missed him and it made me think that actually I might want to live with him.
He freely talks about "when we have children" and getting married etc but my experience (of other men, not him necessarily) is that talk is cheap. It's actions that matter and I don't want to be the one pushing the children agenda.
The problem is my age really. Which I can't change.
Anyway this is a bit of a brain dump. Not sure what I'm asking for advice on!
I'm just worried I invest time in something that doesn't work out how I want it too.