I was stood in the kitchen looking around thinking I'm hosting a ton of family today and i must have missed something because I feel calm, relaxed and happy pottering around. I feel in control and organised. Turkey, yes. No, I haven't forgotten the potatoes.
Then I finally realised what I'd missed! I've not got the stress, the pressure, the panic of reaching someone else's expectations. I've not got the worry of failing or not doing it good enough.
This is my first Christmas with my husband and I'm just so relieved that I finally after nine years left my ex and rebuilt my life.
There is life after an abusive relationship and I am just seeing the light. It's a breath of fresh air and I haven't missed anything!