I'm unsure if what I feel about dp and our relationship is right. I guess I'm looking for reassurance?
We have been together 12 years, 2dc. I've always felt unsure about us if I'm totally honest, but then I fell pregnant and we did the family thing, hiding behind the dc. Not really acknowledging us and focusing on them instead.
But now I want to leave. I feel trapped. I'm not happy, haven't been for a very long time. So much crap has happened and I can't take anymore. Yet I don't want to confront him yet as I need to have a clear head, & a solid plan.
I can't think straight so I'll bullet point
-we don't sleep in same bed. He always falls asleep on the sofa. Makes up a reason why he stays there. Says he'll come to bed but rarely does (a few times a year. It's that bad) have told him I dont like it but still falls asleep on sofa.
-have had sex about 3 times in the past year.
-leaves dc to me 90% of time
- doesn't put family time first. Always at work
-has been caught sexting someone else when dc1 was younger.
-incident 2 years ago when he was charged with ABH towards me
-weed smoker even though I hate it. Have just recently found out he still uses even though he repeatedly lied and said he doesn't for the past 3 years. Have found it in the house and he always says it's for someone else. I know, I'm a fool.
So I've had enough. I don't want the rest of my life with this tangled Web of shit. But after all this I still doubt myself and I don't know why