Is this cheating?

[Beepeear]

Please read all its not long

At the start of my relationship, after three days I made the mistake of complimenting another girl, in a sexual way, commenting on her breasts, very shallow I know, my girlfriend knows about this, I couldn't deal with the guilt, I hated myself I'd never do it again

However. I seem to remember myself talking to a girl and I asked her if she would ever cheat on her boyfriend, she said no. And for some reason I had the intention to ask "not even with me". I never did ask that, as I realised I was stupid, I know it wasn't after I complimented that other girl because I'd never be able to do anything against her like that again, but I just can't remember if it was before we were together or whilst we were. I forgot this for a few months but in a daydream I remembered it again and it's killing me.

I feel so so so guilty, i love her to pieces I love spending every second with her and haven't spoken to a girl at all since then, I don't want to, I love everything about my girlfriend and I'd never cheat, she told me she wouldn't leave me if I did but i just simply wouldn't, I couldn't do that to her. She's my world, is this cheating? Should I tell her or let it go? I don't want to hurt her, please believe me

[Footle]

You didn't cheat. She doesn't need or want to know. She needs you to move on from that non-event, and enjoy being together. I know it's easier said than done, and I hope you're getting some help to learn to move past the anxiety. You sound like a good man.

[ObsidianBlackbirdMcNight]

The thing about ocd is that it thrives on this kind of reassurance seeking behaviour. You think you need us to tell you if you cheated or not but if we start a dialogue about that it is just going to feed the ocd. We cannot help you with this situation. Talk it through with your therapist.

[Beepeear]

I'd never get like that with someone else in person, I guess I was just a fool and thought its easier to say it with a text on a phone. But when I'm with my girlfriend she takes everything away, she's the best thing to happen to me and she's worth me fighting this off and she deserves to be given every little part of love I have for her, thanks ever so much everyone who commented, you've helped me more than you can know

[hellsbellsmelons]

No you did not cheat.
And who put those 'rules' in place anyway?
You are 19, please do not get bogged down with the details.
You should be going out and enjoying yourself.
And if you aren't already then get some help for your OCD.
Your GP can help you with that.