DH and I had a bit of a whirlwind start 4 years ago. Quickly lived together married within a year. Seemingly perfectly suited to each other. Rarely had even so much as a cross word. Became pregnant fairly quickly after the wedding (unplanned) put a huge strain on the relationship the whole dynamic changed. I completely went off sex far too tired n uncomfortable. DH has always had a high sex drive and without he gets really low self esteem whole other thread. Any way dd was born things seemed OK for a while but my sex drive never returned. atall! Dd is now 10 months and DH says he feels are more friends than husband and wife. Recently found out my grandad is terminally ill, he hasn't spoken to me since just before dd was born. Have been told he has only a few days left. Last night DH got incredibly drunk leaving all care of dd to myself when to be honest all I wanted to do was hide away in bed and try to process everything with my grandad. Whilst drunk he then reiterated his point that we are just mates and went and slept on the sofa. I'm so angry with him yet somehow he's trying to turn it around that it's me that's unreasonable, as he works full time has early starts late finishes that he needs to let his hair down n that during these times I should be looking after dd through the night and that I was out of order for getting him to deal with her at 4 this morning after she had had me up 4 times already. Don't really know why I'm posting just needed somewhere to vent!