I don't even know how I find myself here as I have never used mumsnet before. I got divorced three years ago after my husband found himself a new friend, but I don't want him I'm just angry that he could never be a man and has left us all in this position.
I have just had to start charging my children to live here as we have zero money coming in now my youngest has hit 18. This is causing me a lot of anxiety as I worry they won't pay. There are no jobs, I was just thinking about the amount I have applied for in the last 12 months or so and only one came up trumps which didn't work out.
I have a new partner who is tricky to handle to say the least. I have gone from being with a wimp to somebody who is probably too much for me. I went to a huge effort earlier this year to apply for a job so I could spend more time at his (the application of which took hours to complete - anyone would think you were applying to be a rocket scientist), then move in only for him to invite family down he hadn't seen for years which didn't go very well because we were all squashed in...there was an argument and he threw me out. But we did make up. Since then I feel very half-hearted about bothering to go for jobs there again since I don't feel secure.
I did a science diploma 18 months ago and got mostly distinctions and got a very good offer but didn't go due to all the stupid debt attached to it. So now applying for crappy jobs and really just don't care if I get one or not.
Think I will sign on next week and just sit at home as I really just do not care anymore. Sometimes I just think I should light my barbecue in the house and just sit there till I fall asleep...
I look ahead of me and see the following...
My children who don't value their family
A relationship I am not sure about that I sometimes feel bullied in with somebody who is obsessed about me working to pay him to live there
Crap jobs
The only thing stopping me is my 9 month old grandson who I don't want to leave unprotected due to him having crappy parents.
I feel I have seen, done it all and tried to do it right but no one gives a damn and no one cares.
My mother although supportive always tries to see it from everybody else's point of view...oh and everybody else is perfect
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penelope01 · 28/11/2015 16:49
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