I am posting this mainly to get it off my chest.Some people have advised me before and witnessed the gradual decline in my marriage.Ive changed jobs which has been great apart from the fact im never off when my family are.
I have had to take on extra work while a colleague has an op for a whole month.Not ideal with current relationship issues and dh has been sleeping downstairs after yrs of me doing so with his bad snoring and 430 am alarm.
I had hoped this christmas would be a good one as df is ok this week (been v ill as terminal c on off all this yr).
i agreed to dd getting a hamster as she is 18 however her small room had to be tidied as it is overrun with clothes while she works 48 hr weeks on late shifts.DH agreed we are v overstretched,
so tonight after a tense day at work i came home to a hamster and sawdust everywhere and the food shop done which im pleased about although much of it is junk not supposed to be eaten by someone who has had a major heart attack like dh did.
Dh has 3 days off a week so i would expect him to make ds 16 some tea.He chose instead to watch his beloved soap opera which no one can talk when its on.He wont communicate with ds even before he came out as gay :(
9 pm they decide on take away pizza which is a complete one off.its like he is having a midlife crisis.Only doing what he likes with no regard for his health or thought for anyone.My own DM had a go at me thur as we dont earn much between us none of her business.I feel like my life is falling apart.
Once i had dhs support and love and a job with set hours.i thought my parents respected my work ethic (they dont) and my dcs cant stand the fact ive stayed with someone when we clearly have nothing in common anymore.
I cant believe anyone can change so much.i dont recognise this man.i vow to sort this out in jan.:(