This has an AIBU theme to it but honestly I don't feel up to the beating I'd most likely get.
I'm a bit upset. I'm in a relationship which for the most part is good. A few wee up's and down's but nothing major.
So the issue... I feel my DP can be a bit selfish and still a bit single lad minded sometimes. Last weekend - he was out Fri and then made plans for Sat afternoon. This was fine. This week he was out last night, said he'd be back by around 8pm, came in at 1am. There was no text to say he was staying out later, he actually left where he was, got a taxi to somewhere else to meet a few friends but didn't think at any point that it might be nice to let me know since I was expecting him back. Today he had plans to meet a friend.
During the week he dropped into conversation that he is meant to be out both nights next weekend too.
I feel like he makes plans without a single thought to me. I have a young daughter so when he is out I'm obviously at home with her. I don't care about the fact he came in at 1am, if he'd just said I'm going out might be late one I'd have had a glass of wine, had a bath, chilled and watched a film but he said he would be back early, even if he'd text to say that he wouldn't be back it would have been fine.
Last night I was fucked off, I was in bed when he came in and pretended to be asleep because I didn't want to get into it. This morning we spoke and although he has apologised I'm just feeling a bit down in the dumps and like we're way down on the list of priorities to spend time with. He went out today as planned, has said he'll be back by 8 (de ja vu) but has also said he's cancelling one of the night next week and that he realises he's been a bit selfish and has taken me for granted. The conversation hasn't made me feel any better if I'm honest.
A bit of background, my ExH is an alcoholic and I spent alot of our relationship waiting on the key in the lock, never at the time I was expecting, always paraletic. Because of this I accept I'm a bit sensitive to the way people act when they go out. I can't explain it because DP is nothing like ex but last night I really felt like my emotions had been propelled back to that time in my life waiting for the key in the lock. It's made me quite teary today. My head is banging, think it's a tension headache and I'm just feeling a bit sad and also a bit lonely. Pathetic and an over-reaction I know.
I don't feel I've been completely unfair in this though. I think he's been a bit of a thoughtless dick but maybe not enough to justify how I'm feeling about it all. Any opinions or thoughts?