Hi all,
I split from my husband around a year ago when our DS was a year old. Both v unhappy, both became v nasty to one another. He moved out, we both saw other people & tried to move on.
I was quite happy in my new relationship. He treated me so well, which I hadn't had from my husband for years...but I also had nagging worries about whether I would be happier in the long term with the new guy.
Then my husband (still not divorced, but living apart for over a year by now) tells me he still loves me, misses me, is v sorry & wants to make amends and try & make a go of things.
And my life has been turned upside down. I have put the new relationship on hold to try & decide what to do.
I am now just very unhappy.
I feel in a state of limbo, with this enormous decision to make alone, and so many things in my head - regrets I may have if I don't get back with husband, sadness about the new relationship ending and what I may be passing up here, even though it was't perfect.
I guess I just wonder, is it unrealistic to expect perfect?? Part of me feels like I just need to grow up and work harder and being happier in myself and happier with my husband.
My husband is not a bad man. He is a great dad.
I cannot imagine life without him being there for me and I feel so massively guilty about him missing out on our DS living with him if I don't get back with him.
But maybe I just need to be brave.
:( So unhappy with this decision. I was doing so well on my own after we split and now I feel back to square 1.
Thanks all x