Everything is a bloody mess at the moment. DH works full time and goes to college 2 evenings a week. He is tired and grumpy and takes it out on me by being critical, negative and generally an arse. I look after DS (14months) full time and work (self-employed, from home) every nap time and several evenings a week. I am tired and feeling sensitive and getting extremely upset with how I am spoken to by DH. Both of us are struggling to keep on top of house stuff. DS is going through a patch of taking hours to get to sleep, making us both even more stressed out.
I'm fed up of feeling like a shit and failing mother with an often sunny but also often grumpy child who takes hours to fall asleep. I'm fed up of being spoken to like I'm just an irritating piece of shit that does everything wrong and gets in DH's way (its not all the time but this is the 3rd day in a row so it feels that way). I'm fed up of having the same conversation over and over again where I tell him all this and he apologies and nothing changes.
I really don't know where to go from here. I don't want to put up with this but I'm not ready or in a place where I can or want to walk away. But I don't know how I can keep trying to fix it with someone who struggles to communicate and is full of lip service and I just needed to get it out :( today after 2.5hours failing to get a tired and furious DS to nap I called DH at work looking for sympathy and reassurance, and this evening I said I was finally feeling relaxed again for the first time in days (cuddling DS in front of Night Garden) only for him to choose that moment to tell me not to call him at work.
Currently sat moping on the sofa while DH attempts to get DS to sleep and I don't even have any 