Im not sure how to link my other thread but backround is my H and I are at the separation point.
He has managed to get a flat and signs for it next week.
He said he is leaving me as im too involved with my work. My work involves helping people less fortunate and I really enjoy it. Once every 6 - 8 weeks they have a social event to raise funds which I also usually will attend to show my support, but also because I enjoy it.
He has said he cant understand why im so involved and why I would go there when I could be home with him. He said I have made him feel lonely and unwanted. He also said the sex has gone down hill and at times he has had to want himself to get ready for sex. That really hurt me to the core.
So now im questioning is it me, maybe this whole mess is my fault.
Last night he smoked 3 joints and had 3 lagers and started again about the things I am doing to him. He doesn't shout or ever get violent but he has a certain tone that scares me if im honest. I have realised I am very anxious and actually a nervous wreck, I second guess everything and have been looking back to see my faults.
I cant believe he is speaking to me so horribly? I feel tormented. I want to cry but I just cant break down.
There is supposed to be an event tonight I was due to go to for approx. 2 hours but im actually scared to let myself enjoy it for the gulit.
What more can I do?