So, he left me 10 weeks ago for women at work and her young children. 23 years together. We have a DS, 5 years old. We're doing OK. Just trying to be amicable and good about things or he turns nasty and could be difficult. I've decided to think what I like on the inside and put on a front.
However, him with her and her children, living the life, falling in love, what they're doing, constantly obsessing is DOING MY HEAD IN!!! I'm trying - goodness knows Im' trying - to keep busy, tell myself that they're not important, focus on me and DS but my god its hard isn't it. It hurts SO much. When will this stop??? I know thats a question that can't be answered but every time I look at him, I look at his arms think about them around her. I look at his mouth and think of them kissing. Its not even the sexual stuff - its the companionship that hurts me - lazy mornings in bed, walking hand in hand, down the pub (when her kids are at their fathers).
No miracle cures I know but it hurts x