Mixed messages? really struggling

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I know this sounds really trivial, but o am really struggling and would appreciate some perspectives/advice

I have really strong feelings for a colleague. We get on really well, seek each other out, have lots on commo, chat etc. Text each other

I've asked him to do something socially and he declined. So, obviously hes not interested

But i can't accept it. Obviously o do accept it, but inside o keep analysing what he does and says, interpreting everything as a sign that actual he is interested

But if he was, he would ask me out. It takes all my willpower not to ask him. On feeling s bit ill over this and run the risk of making an idiot of myself. I think my work isd suffering

How can I keep a good working relationship with him but convince myself of the reality

So you know he's not interested, he's declined your offer but still you hope for the opposite, fair enough, you can hope but please don't make a fool of yourself, he clearly see you as nothing more than a work friend, leave it at that and stop making yourself miserable trying to turn it into something it is not.

Yes, but how?

Get busy, with a man that is up for it.