hi, so ok i'll start by apologising for the long post.
ive been married 7 years. my husband and i struggled to conceive and had 7 miscarriages. last year we had a little girl but she died shortly after she was born. My husband had had a drug and alcohol problem for as long as ive known him. He doesnt drink every day but maybe two to three times a week but hits it hard. We also live next to his parents who are very religious and imposing and also despise me. Anyway after our little girl dies I suffered major depression. It didnt effect our relationship physically but his refusal to stop drinking and two further miscarriages made me resentful towards him. I started seeing my friends more and got a job instead of focusing on him as i realised we may never have kids. So he went on a boys holiday to ibiza, he came back with herpes. i was devestated, the next day after i had founf out (he admitted a one night stand) he had to leave to miami on business. I logged into his emails and found he was going first classs with some girl from his work and sharing a room, ten grand it cost him when he wouldnt pay for ivf. i was so angry i smashed a mirror and out oven. his parents came around and called the police and tried to have me evicted from the house. now he refuses to speak with me. i dont know what to do. im back at my mothers who makes me tidy my room before i leave ( i was late for a meeting, seriously) i feel like my life is over. so much hurt in such a small space of time. i do still love him and i miss him, i just feel sad that he could do this to me. i dont even know what im looking to hear. i guess just a bit of comfort