Please feel free to give me a virtual slap.
I've name changed.
We've been apart a year.
He left me with two small children and took up with his co worker who subsequently ended her marriage.
Every time I think I'm just getting there I am taken a back by them.
Probably immature on my part but I would find it much easier if he wasn't living life so wonderfully with someone who caused so much hurt.
Well after lots of encouragement I decided to start a degree this year, it took a long time to build up the confidence and belief in myself , it gave me a bit of power like I was doing something wonderful and that I was going to better mine and the children's lives.
So someone mentions to me in passing ( you know those people who like to snoop just aggravate you, pretend friends you see in the street etc) that she has also decided to start a degree etc.... Which is okay for her she's sleeping with her boss, gets all the cushty shifts and has his support also her child is split between her father.
I on the other hand get no support, work and have two children who he sees twice a month and am left with an ex who blows hot and cold with me constantly! Were no contact now and have been since mid September, as he had started what u can only assume were mind games, turning up , wanting family days and messaging me a lot etc ....
I know you will all think I'm jealous and perhaps I am , but I had my home, my old job everything turned upside down because of these two and they seem to trump me every step of the way! We all deserve happiness I know but a part of me would like the tables to turn.
Sorry to rant but much better than to bottle it up.