Mr BWHM is still living at home and he has one more week of reasonable time in which to move out as I'm trying to stay amicable with him for the sake of the kids and he was the one who said he was leaving.
Anyways last night he cooked dinner for us all, we shared a bottle of wine, talked about inconsequential daily stuff, kids went to bed, we shared another bottle and ended up DTD although I slept in my bed and not the marital one.
I'm disappointed with myself for allowing it to happen, I'm cross as it was wonderful and just what I needed, peed off because until he announced he was leaving, we were DTD very regularly and I didn't know anything was wrong (apart from his affair that we were trying to move on from). But most of all I'm angry with myself for possibly thinking there could be more if he decided he wanted to stay no matter how much he is currently hurting me. We have always been good together and sex has never dwindled away between us.
Please tell me I wasn't stupid or that I should beg him to stay because of it and hold my hand when it starts to get really rough over the weekend.