Severely abusive childhood, severely abusive long marriage. Lost all contact with blood relatives on account of the abuse I suffered (from both parents) & extended family not believing it. Lost all married relations during the divorce. So it's just me on my own now. Crapola. It's been really tough, always trying to keep your chin up, trying to be positive. I have friends but they have their own lives. All I ever wanted was to love & be loved. I feel very alone. Will anyone ever love me?