I just wanna run away

[Helplessdad369]

I have 2 children 4 and 8 months. Have been married 5 years but i cant stay anymore. I have a history of depression. Me and my wife never seem to get on despite trying we cant go more than an hour without arguing. We have tried talking and talking and talking but never seem to be able to resolve anything. She says she loves me but wont touch me. Not just sex. She wound hold my hand put her hand on my back hig me anything. We have talked about it she just says its not you its me i will try harder etc but nothing gets any better. Gets worse if anything. I just want to run away. Im sat here now 11:20 ready to go. But i have no where to go. I have thought about all options even buying a tent and running away. I dont want to leave my children they are my world and i love my wife but feel helpless and regected. I just want to run as far away as possible.

Sorry about the bad spelling and typos

How're you getting on?

Have you tried couples counselling? Or perhaps you should see your gp for yourself, everything will be ok stay strong

How are you this morning OP?

I understand how it feels to be trapped in a relationship but if you get some advice from a solicitor or from CAB you might be able to find a way forward. Or counselling as a pp suggested.

Thanks for your replys, i decided to go to sleep on it see if i felt diffrent in the morning. Which i dont. We tried counselling a few years ago. Found it just made things worse. But then things got better for a bit. The GP just wants to prescribe anti depressants again.

Take the AD's, they do help. If it is not possible to make changes to your circumstances at the moment, it helps to make the situation bearable.

What about counselling for yourself? It helps to be able to talk things through with someone outside of the situation. I had no one in RL to talk to so I found it very helpful.

How are other aspects of your life? Do you work? Have any hobbies?