Help me not to sabotage this lovely relationship

[NowLivingAbroad]

Hello lovely mumsnetters,

I need your help. I have been seeing this guy for a year now. He is absolutely lovely and he adores me. I also adore him. However, I have a huge problem. I think I don't expect good things to happen to me; I sabotage any good things that happen to me in some ways.

I have started doing scenes of jealousy which are just not worthy - he has given me no reason to be jealous. He gives me time, introduce me to his friends. We are both foreigners in this country but I will be going to his country soon on holiday with me. The day before yesterday, we had an argument because one of his neighbours, a woman, proposed to wash his dishes for him and of course, I behaved rudely towards him. In this country, it can be normal practice to do that so let's not concentrate on the woman.

But, basically, here is what I need. He loves me, I love me. Give me tips on how I focus on this so I don't lose this lovely man and this lovely relationship.

Thank you

I can assure you its not normal to wash another neighbours dishes..unless you were entertaining?

I hear you... It is a behaviour that wouldn't be too bizarre here but I know she has designs on my DP. DP however is not interested; I know this but he will also not be rude to her. We don't live together. I was lying in the sofa when she came so she didn't see me. Yesterday, she didn't do this.

I know he hasn't cheated on me at all. This is just me thinking he is bound to do it and when he does, I will die and just running ahead of myself trying to prevent that from happening and not realising that I could be destroying everything in the process.