Sorry not not this may not be right place to post.
I need to rant basically.
Been with dp.over 20yrs and 3 dc.
Hes a good bloke. Easy going. Half soaked really. But way too serious for me sometimes. Never throws caution to the wind. Seems happy basically doing fuck all. For example, likes holidays but never mentions it unless I plan but probably wouldn't be fussed if we didn't go either. Doesn't get excited about anything. Christmas etc.
If we go to a party hes always happy to leave early. He would never say 'fuck it, lets have another drink'.
Dead serious with kids and speaks in a cross tone all the time. Denies this. Dcs even say why is dad in a bad mood (he isn't, its normal).
In contrast im silly, have a laugh, want to live life to the full. But I am a moaner and I do nit pick.
Lately things are shit on a daily basis. Im sooo intolerant of him. Have we just drifted aprt? Im constantly picking him up on stuff and he constantly says I moan.
Also I feel have no one to talk to. I chat to him about work (stressful) and he says just get on with it. I have a grumble about one thing or another and hes confused about what to say. Im just de -stressing.
I have no one to talk to. Oldest friend is wrapped up in own life. Im close to sister but she doesn't live that near to pop in. .
Chat absentmindedly to dp about any old shit but he thinks im going on! He doesn't like conversation. He will literally walk off! Im like woah! He thinks its fine to do this and not rude!
I sound like i have a unhappy life. Not true I love my life..
I feel lost. I feel lonely.