moody all the time

[eminem92]

I love my partner but Im always moody and get really angry over silly little things, Its becoming a problem for me not only do i get angry with him but also family members i have a bad attitude towards alot of them especially my mum she never really been there for me even when i needed her the most i been so independent since i was 12 years old i am now 23.
my partner is an amazing guy and i wonder sometimes how did i become so lucky, i am the black sheep always being pushed away by family even when i go to a meal with them i get ignored as if im not there. I just feel angry and so much hate i dont hate her i just hate the way she is with me and my brother always telling me to get a life and im a reject.

my bf does understand the reasons why im like this why i go mental for no reason and the anger i get so bad more then anything hes the only one whos been there. apart of me thinks the reason why i get angry is because i not really had anyone there for me until he came along.

but then the apart im not so sure.

i dont know what todo i got alot of anger problem the family dont help they seem to make it worse for me sometimes i think its better if i leave and make a new start but i have a niece and a nephew that i love to bits and want to see them grow up.

i feel like im trapped....

any advice from anyone? even a little would help.
thanks

when i say her i mean my mum.

I'm sorry you've had such a shit childhood.
However, projecting all your anger at your DP is abusive; you can't go on like that. You need to treat him the way you like to be treated.

Do you ever stand up to you mum? Can you throw some of that anger at her?

Sorry, just saw you say in your op that you do get angry with your mum.

If you still live with your mum, you need to move out. It's a toxic situation for you. You can still see your niece and nephew.

Distance. Get space from your mother and control of how and when you interact.

Counselling. Get the tools to manage your anger and reasons behind it.

Possibly you're not in the right mental place to be in a relationship, in which case, end it until you can control yourself.

Journal. Track your moods and see if there's a pattern.

If you feel trapped, then find ways to free yourself. Get a plan to escape whatever the circumstances are, and follow it. One step at a time. Hope and self worth.

This is why i need advice on what todo I know it isn't normal behaviour to get angry with my bf I do love him and i know hes here to help but its not his problem its my own ...

I dont live with my mother but I cant get away as she lives around the corner from me. its difficult i want to get away but I stay.

I tried to avoid my mum at all cost it dont work i tried to ignore her but some how im in the wrong i have even apologised for things that wasnt even my fault but i tried todo everything i could think of to make her proud yet she still hates me.

i forgot to mention she is a narcissistic
i dont really fully understand what that actually means as she got so much love for my other siblings and she treats them differently to me ...
why is that ?

Move. Life is too short.