been together 4 years, two beautiful children. Checkinv my emails the other day and i was upset a year ago about the same issues im upset about now.
For about 6 months now ive been feeling very unloved. He doesnt cuddle or kiss me anymore, sex is rare and is when hes absolutely pissed. Which just makes me feel dirty like he has tk be that drunk to sleep with me.
Im not in bad shape, i have an 9 month old baby but im a size 12 so not huge.
Its not just the intimacy, i ask him somthing or disagree with me and he shouts at me. Ive asked him so many times to not shout at me. He says i dkng listen but im not gojng to listen if someones shouting in my face.
I do all the childcare by myseld, he doesnt work but still doesnt help. I pay for ecerything and i mean everything.
Last week i told him i was struggling to feed us all and i needed him tk start helping out. He said " i will when you get your vouchers sorted, its your own fault your struggling.
I keep tryinv to fix stuff. I dont speak tohim about things that upsetme anymore because he starts on me for it. When im upset and try to discuss it hegoes in a rage.
Im going to end things tonight, hes goinv to start on me. Then jnna few days hell start beinv nice again and im afraid ill let him back.
Im sick of being unhappy, im sick of feeljng unloved. I feel ugly, He wont get up till about 6pm, ill give it an hour for himto sort himself out then im going to ask him to leave