Submitting the divorce papers today

[BeCarefulWithThat]

And I just feel ... why the hell isn't he begging me not to do it?

We were together for 23 years. We loved each other. We were both faithful. We have two young DC who adore us both.

But he chose alcohol over us. Again and again. I told him it would be the end of us. He carried on. I moved out of our home, took the DC with me. Told him if he stopped drinking we would come back. He carried on. Said he didn't want anyone else, said he wanted his family back. Then he carried on.

Now I'm divorcing him. He knows this. He has read my petition document. He knows I am taking the papers to court this afternoon.

Why isn't he asking me not to do it??

I guess he didn't love me like I thought he did.

You know what, please disregard all of the above. Self pitying nonsense.

I am so much better off without him.

You are better off. Get your act together, sort out your children's and your lives and rebuild a safe environment.

You are doing the right thing for you and the DCs. Stay strong OP. You don't sound self-pitying; it's a sad situation and you wouldn't be human if you weren't hurting.

Alcohol destroys it so hard to deal with. Good luck - I assume he won't get help for his problems and you've just reached a step too far.

You've reached an impasse - be strong be yourself.

I'm at court waiting to submit the papers and I feel really good. Strong. This is without doubt the right thing. I anticipate feeling hugely relieved when it's done.

I think this morning was just a twinge.

Onward!

Well done - feel liberated!

Keep posting - tonight might be hard as well as the next few days. You will find supporting voices here.