This year seems to be a haze for several reasons but I am realising I am struggling.
My marriage has kind of gone downhill due to a few different factors including drink and drugs, nothing major but its still the elephant in the room. I really try to just accept things but the resentment has kind of grown. H is far from being out of it but I feel he has so much "his time" compared to me. Generally he doesn't tidy etc unless I ask him too, he seems to think I don't need the same break he has after work!
I know its nothing major but im starting to feel really sad that this could be my life, im really struggling to feel emotions and I cant understand how I can change this, I hate feeling so emotionless, yet I feel really bad that I may hurt him or that I am going against him.
Im quite happy at work as I feel I can be completely myself and relax, I cant understand what is going on with me.